Mark: one year

A couple of days ago marked the official day one year ago that Dr. Neuhoff told us that we were for sure pregnant. I am caught off gaurd by the emotions i feel this week. Jon and i had wanted to be pregnant so bad, and went through some small challenges. I knew in my heart that i was pregnant, i just knew. The first day that i could, i took the pregnancy test and there was a very faint pink line. Seeing that line made my heart beat faster with excitement, i called Jon and told him, and he was so excited. I called our OB, and they said to come in the next day for a pg test. I took it, and Dr. N. walked in and said " Your pregnant!" We cried and hugged eachother. That night i couldn't sleep. I was so excited yet so anxious at the same time. I knew our lives would never be the same. So this week, i am remembering feeling so happy that i was sick, yes even glad i was puking in the toilet, because i knew that it was a blessing. I knew so many women would kill to be able to feel sick to get a baby. So i had to remind myself, even on my worst feeling days, that it was a miracle. I am so glad our little Mia is out, but part of me misses feeling life growing inside. Nothing explains the feeling of having a foot kicking your ribs, or the feel of your baby flipping around. It's a miracle, plain and simple. How could you deny there is a God after seeing a baby being formed!

And now God has placed our little Mia to Jon and I to raise in the image of Him, and i'm overwhelmed by the responsability of being a parent. Jon and I are responsable for 18 years to love, cherish, discipline, raise Mia to mostly love the Lord with all her heart, soul, and mind. It scares me to really think of what God has entrusted me with. She is mine for a short time, but she is only on loan from God.

What i didn't know.....

five months ago five years ago

I knew but i didn't how much i would love being a mom. It's the greatest gift of all! Im so thankful. And i will say the first month after having Mia, JOn had to have a minor surgery, but nevertheless, it was a little stressful for the three of us. Picture this, a brand new baby to love and to get to know, and to adjust to a new schedule, a husband who had to have a surgery that was very painful for him, and balancing a new life for me, stay at home mom, cleaning, working on the computer from home a few hours, playing with Mia, new to breastfeeding, etc. etc. To say the least it was a little overwhelming in the beginning, and a little stressful on our marriage. I never thought it would be, but we are all human right! Well, on our five year anniversary we took a much needed night away together and it was so amazing. We started reading through a book called love and respect, and it has done amazing things for the both of us. I cherish our time together reading it. Even with all those new things going on in our life, i have grown closer to the man i call my husband and my daughter's father. Yes life can get to you, but you can make it through the grace of God more amazing then it was before.

Now Lovely, here is the tag results!! This does take a majour emotional look back!

5 Years ago:

2003: I married the love of my life. I was planning the wedding from the moment i got back in January from getting engaged. I had flown to Pittsburgh to spend time with Jon and his family the 26th of December. I was getting off the plane and riding down the escalater (sp) when Jon was standing at the bottom with a dozen roses. I thought aww how sweet he missed me ! He was acting a little nervous, but didn't think much of it, then he got on one knee and said that he knew from the moment he met me that he wanted me to be his wife, and that he didn't want to spend the rest of his life without me, then pulled out an amazing ring and asked me to be his wife. It was one of the best moments of my life, i said yes, and he hugged and kissed me. We had a great week together. Thus came planning our wedding, he moved to Montana that May after he graduated from Penn state. We had a beautiful wedding shared with amazing friends and family and then had a great honeymoon in the Bahamas.

5 months ago:

I was just getting ready to be done with work, ready to have my baby, i mean like popping out, and ready ready ready to have that baby, lol. I wasn't sleeping well at night, because i kept thinking, will i be a good mom, will i know what to do with a newborn, am i ready for this journey. THen my last day of work, someone was stocking me in traffic and hit me on purpose then tried to get away, but got stopped at a red light, knew i was calling the cops, so tried to lie his way out of what he did, it was very scary, thankfully just the car got damaged, and the baby was ok, and i wasn't hurt!

5 bad habbits:

procrastinating

procrastinating!

not balancing the check book on time

not praying enough, or reading the word enough

not planning enough

5 places i've lived:

I can't do five, but

I lived in Schroon lake, NY.

I lived in Harrisburgh, PA for a summer helping some friends out.

I live in Billings, Montana.

5 Things people don't know about me:

Well depends on who you are.

1. I actually enjoy cooking now.

2. I was in the twin towers two weeks before they were bombed.

3. I met my husband through my pastor's wife's neice who was my roommate in college, Jon is her husband's brother. He told his mom that weekend that that was the girl he was going to marry and she laughed at him. Well? Look what happened, lol.

4. I went to Brazil and met amazing people.

5. My future holds something exciting something i can share later, and no it's not another baby.