Mark: one year

A couple of days ago marked the official day one year ago that Dr. Neuhoff told us that we were for sure pregnant. I am caught off gaurd by the emotions i feel this week. Jon and i had wanted to be pregnant so bad, and went through some small challenges. I knew in my heart that i was pregnant, i just knew. The first day that i could, i took the pregnancy test and there was a very faint pink line. Seeing that line made my heart beat faster with excitement, i called Jon and told him, and he was so excited. I called our OB, and they said to come in the next day for a pg test. I took it, and Dr. N. walked in and said " Your pregnant!" We cried and hugged eachother. That night i couldn't sleep. I was so excited yet so anxious at the same time. I knew our lives would never be the same. So this week, i am remembering feeling so happy that i was sick, yes even glad i was puking in the toilet, because i knew that it was a blessing. I knew so many women would kill to be able to feel sick to get a baby. So i had to remind myself, even on my worst feeling days, that it was a miracle. I am so glad our little Mia is out, but part of me misses feeling life growing inside. Nothing explains the feeling of having a foot kicking your ribs, or the feel of your baby flipping around. It's a miracle, plain and simple. How could you deny there is a God after seeing a baby being formed!

And now God has placed our little Mia to Jon and I to raise in the image of Him, and i'm overwhelmed by the responsability of being a parent. Jon and I are responsable for 18 years to love, cherish, discipline, raise Mia to mostly love the Lord with all her heart, soul, and mind. It scares me to really think of what God has entrusted me with. She is mine for a short time, but she is only on loan from God.