Reflections from a year ago.

Well I have been up since four this morning. For some reason i couldn' sleep, I had alot on my mind. One of them was Christmas a year ago. Jon and i decided this year that we woudn't be buying presents for eachother this year. We know that shouldn't be the focus of Christmas, and i really want to have the right focus this year. But i've had so many blessings and gifts this year already. I posted some of my favorite memories of last year's Christmas. Decorating my home for Christmas is so much fun for me, and one tradition i can't wait to share with Mia. Last Christmas i was about four months pregnant with her, so i posted a pic of me pregnant with her. My Aunt Lorraine had bought me a christmas ornament and put an ultrasound picture of her in the frame, and i loved it. I had such a great pregnancy with her, i was so blessed. I loved being pregnant. Last Christmas was also the first Christmas i had made dinner for all my family, and i had so much fun making the turkey, and everything to go with it, and decorating the table, lighting candles, christmas music, oh it was so much fun. I will do those same things this year, but for some great reason, i was really struck with the question in my head, "why do i love christmas so much"? I am guilty of getting caught up in the glimmer and glam of Christmas, which i don't think is wrong to have fun with, but i'm guilty of sometimes let it take over of what the true meaning is. This time of year is always my favorite, starting in October, the crisp fall air, leaves, of course decorating for fall, and then Thanksgiving and Christmas, i just absolutely love this time of year. It's so comforting and warm, nostalgic. But it's not for everyone. I know i'm all over the place in this blog, but i guess i just hope to focus more on Jesus' birth this Christmas, and thankful for the gift of Mia this year, and a great husband who truly loves me and lets me stay at home with her!!

Greatful indeed.

A Friend told me she was pregnant today. I was filled with excitement, but then extreme sadness because she said she would terminate the pregnancy if they found out the baby had downs syndrome or anything else wrong. It just made me so sick inside and so sad. How could someone do that? It's a baby, it's life, it's a miracle. As i drove home from dinner, i was thanking God again for my little bundle of love in my backseat. Her smiles, and coo's and babbling make my day. She rolled over for the first time this week and it might as well been getting a million bucks, we were so proud. Funny how the littlest things your baby does makes your whole day! When i look at her sleeping or smiling at me, I think of the verse "you formed my inward parts, you covered me in my mother's womb" . Mia wasn't an accident, or a "fetus". She was formed in the image of God. She was formed for me to raise. She is "mine" for a short while. I am so in love with being a mom!!! I pray for this new life growing inside my friend, and pray so hard that she will keep this life growing inside!!!

punkin with pumpkins

We took Mia to the pumpkin patch, and she had a blast. SHe tried to eat all the pumpkins, and played with them. IT was quite the photo op, as you can see i had a blast with pictures, good times.

Mia's first snow day!! She loved it, it was sooo adorable to see her look at the snow fall on her face, she would put her hands out to touch it, it was too cute. I pray it snows again soon so that we can put a snowsuit on her and stick her in the snow.

Today was a very frustrating day for me. I so get frustrated with my own "sex". I don't understand how women can be so competitive, rude, and just hurtful. When i was about to have Mia, I knew that i had to have a c section. It wasn't something i had sought out, it was something that was for the best health for my daughter and I. My doctor was so scared to tell us that we needed a c section because of all the bad rap out there with doctors and c sections. Well i went into labor two days before the c section was scheduled, and pretty much proved to the doctor that there was no way i would have delivered her vaginally. WE both could have died if i had. And my sister in law's baby's cord was wrapped around his head, and if they didn't do a c section, he could have died. But i get comments like, your baby will be so unhealthy because of a c section, there's less bonding, and even, "I had to go through more pain and i get the "gold metal" for having the baby vaginally". OH my goodness, why do women compete over everything, let alone how we give birth to our baby's? Shouldn't we just be thankful God have us a miracle baby, and that we have medicine that delivers the baby safely and without killing us!!! SOrry, it was just a bad day today with comments like that. All I can say is i dont care how i had to get Mia out, i got her safely and there's nothing wrong with her, thank the Lord!

The day in the life of Mia.

This is my Mia's day. SHe wakes up at sixish crying to eat, then sleeps again untill 9:00. But she doesn't cry then, she just sits and talks to herself, with her feet straight up in the air, and grabbing her toes. I walk in and she smiles and laughs when she sees me. (That's the best part of morning!) I feed her again, get her ready for the day, and then play with her. Then she go's down for her morning nap and sleeps maybe 45 minutes. Then she plays in her swing or little floor toy, and talks and coo's. It's so fun. Then she eats again and this sleep eating, fun time continues. She's really good at getting in her carseat and sleeping while i run errands too. SHe gets a bath before bed and go's to sleep at 9 at night and sleeps til that six o clock feeding. She has her moments but she's such a good baby. It is so fun being the mom of Mia. Yes there are moments when i just want to pull out my hair but i enjoy her so much. Today she laughed at me laughing at her, and it was soo funny. SHe's going through a mommy phase right now though, she doesn't like a lot of people holding her, but she's getting better!