Wednesday, May 20, 2009
What i get asked frequently...
Since we have found out that we were having a boy, we have been asked multiple times, "So now that you have one of each, are you done now?" And honestly the first time i was asked that, i was taken back. Not because i was angered by the question, but because I was surprised. It really never crossed either Jon's or my mind that we had to have one of each. We both said to eachother from the beginning, whatever God gives us, we are thankful and Here's why I say that. I have met some women who 1) can't get pregnant, has been told that they will never have children, 2) Got pregnant but lost the baby, 3) took them years to get pregnant. I see the pain they go through, and the heartache it is for them. And i thought, wow some women can get pregnant at a blink of an eye. When we were trying to get pregnant with Mia, it took what seemed to us a very long time. Not nearly the amount of time it takes these women i have mentioned. We were told it would be a slight possibility that we wouldn't be able to get pregnant, and Jon and I had decided from the very beginning that we would only go to a certain point if it came to that. But alas, everything is in God's timing, not mine, and Mia came. And then the biggest surprise, junior!! I hadn't really planned on having them so close together, so i was a little overwhelmed by the idea at first!! But then i felt very ashamed of myself!!! The women who can't get pregnant at all came to my mind, and i felt deep guilt inside!! So I thanked the Lord for allowing this, and prayed for the women who can't have children, to comfort their souls. I guess my point in this is to say that whatever sex of the baby's God blesses us with, or how many, I think we have so much to be thankful for. What humbles me out of all of this, is the responsibility in raising these little ones how God wants us to raise them. The other night, as i was putting Mia to bed, I thought to myself, I don't think I could love her any more!!! Then the thought hit me, that that was just a fraction of how God feels about me, and how UNDESERVING I am of that love. I wish i could raise my children with perfection, with never letting my anger take the best of me, teaching them all things in love and humility, like Christ has for me! Never being inconsistent, being able to say " I will never leave you, nor forsake you" and knowing for sure you can keep that promise! Thankfully though, I can tell my children that that is a promise the Lord gives HIS children, and you can count on that!
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