Springtime....

Mia loves her wagon, and loves to ride outside in it!!!

She has started to really grow up fast!!! She has three teeth now, that started only a month ago!! She stands up on her own, she claps her hands, and when the dogs bark, she makes a sound that is her version of dogs barking. When i take showers in the morning, and get ready for the day, she sits in her little purple chair and reads books waiting for me to be done! She loves to laugh and play with us, but she does have quite a temper already, and we are working on it!! LOL, long road ahead on that! She gives kisses, and has a smile that would melt any one's heart!!!

I am reading a book called parenting isn't for cowards. Very convicting!!! It talks alot about why we discipline are children, or i should say why we should discipline our children, and when to start, backing it up with scripture all the way. I can't tell you how many times I have prayed that our children would not only be well behaved children that our fun to be around, but that God would save them, because I know I can't.

What surprises me is how sin nature sets in so quickly and even the most adorable smile can't change that. Then i think of my own heart, and my sin. I'm trying to teach my one year old things that i struggle with!!!!

Is there such a thing as burnt out?

Just wondering if as a christian your allowed to feel "burnt out". Makes me feel guilty just typing the words. Being pregnant with our second child, I have to admit i'm way more scared then i was when i was pregnant with Mia. These horrible thoughts come to mind, "Will i be a good mom to two of them?" "Am I a good mom to Mia?" "Do I nurture her the way i should every day?" "Will this baby get enough attention?" Always second guessing myself.
Also i've learned that you really shouldn't say that you will 'NEVER' do something, those words always bite you in the bunda. =)

There is so much negative news when you turn on the T.V., and frankly some days i can't help but feel scared to be under the leadership of this President we have now. He is such a Godless, and scary man. I fear for my children, even though i know i shouldn't. Even as Christians, we can be so faithless, and cowardly. Why is that?

It's been a while......

Awww , it has been a while since i posted anything. Poor Little Baby Hartzler number two. It's been hectic lately. We found out a month ago we are having a baby boy, which is exciting for us. He is healthy and kicks alot!!! I love that though because i know everything is OK. This pregnancy has been great, I really am thankful.

We recently sold our home, which was kind of sad but God's will for us. We will be moving into our new home within the week. It has three bedrooms on one floor, which we are grateful for!

Mia turns one May 4Th, which is unbelievable!! I can't believe how fast time go's. She is crawling, and standing up, and "talking" so much. She is a blast to be around. I am so blessed and thankful to be at home with her.
Being a mom is very humbling, and keeps me on my toes. But I love it!
I can't wait to see what our little son will be like, his personality, traits, etc...

House wife...

I was contemplating some things today, as i was in the midst of feeling like puking!! Lots of think time, when you feel immobile, lol. There are so many women that i admire and respect, and thank God for as examples of being Godly wives and Godly mothers. I often feel i fail in many of these aspects. I do feel blessed that i have such a great husband that i probably don't tell him enough how much i love him and respect him. But today i was thinking, am i spending my days the way i should be as a mother, and wife, and "house wife". This thought always plagues me for some reason, and i always feel burdened by this. I never expected to have that feeling of lonliness creep up on me during the day, but it does and it suprized me! Just something i was thinking of today.

The second baby H

We are very excited to go down the "baby" road again. I think our doctor's reaction was the funniest part. He was quite excited! Jon and i were just talking about how thankful we are that we have a doctor that doesn't do unnecessary procedures, and that he is safe. If you think about how many things can go wrong, you are putting alot of trust into someone to deliver your baby healthy! Anyways, we are excited. We're pretty sure the baby is due in July, and i'm excited for that month. What a huge surprize and blessing! We are very thankful! AFter trying for so long with Mia and getting this baby so fast, it keeps us in awe of God's blessings!

We are expecting baby number two, sometime in July, we will know soon dates and all that!!!

The Root of Bitterness.....

(I had to put a pic of Mia in to melt hearts, lol)

Today i was burdened by some one's hatred towards someone i love. It angers me, saddens me, and i don't understand it. The bible tells us something very important. "if your brother offends you, GO TO THEM". Does that mean hate them for years on end, to gossip about it to your friend and family? Pretty sure it doesn't. This is what gets me the most, this person went to her and said " i am so sorry if i have hurt you, i love you." And yet there is a grudge there that will never end. And it trickles to other people also. How as "Christians" can you justify treating people like this, and continue to hate so much? I love how we as humans take certain parts of the bible, obey it, and take others and not apply it to our lives. But we sure can crucify others for not following it. And how can you "witness", or "preach", when you have anger, bitterness, hatred towards someone. The bible is clear that you are NOT to take communion, if you have this in your heart. I"m not saying i haven't struggled with this myself. But i have learned in a very hard way, it's a dangerous road to hate, loath, and be bitter towards someone. And even if you go to that person, and their reaction isn't what you wanted, at least you did what God expects of you. I believe that fights and anger, and animosity comes from OUR OWN HEART'S PRIDE. Pride. God commands us to love each other, yes that means confrontation sometimes, and crying over hurt feelings, but then to GET OVER IT. Even if the other person isn't sorry. I feel i have been wronged many times by people who call themselves Christians. I learned not to harbour it in my heart, because in the long run, i was suffering more from it, and sinning by keeping that anger in my heart. I know i have hurt others also, and i continue to pray that my heart is tender towards those who come to me, and tell me i have done wrong, so that i may have reconciliation with my fellow brother/sister in Christ. This has been on my heart for so long, because i see it all way too much.